Emotional wounds are the worst. There are no creams, ointments to relieve us of the pain brought on by torn flesh soul wound. Time is all we have and even time cannot erase the scar of the unsightly memories and traumas. The bad thing about time is that it doesn't really make us forget, it just makes us used to it, like other people say.
And while time tries to help us go through pain, its not enough. We need a NOW-pain reliever, that's when our inner demons come to play.
We submit to the demons of insecurity, self pity, self disrespect and self unworth. We submit to a lot of SELF-centered ways that repel people we love, and give confirmation to those we hate.
Being a survivor of such emotional battle leaves traces. It makes me see the world differently. That the world is scary and bad things can happen just like that. I try to relieve myself of all kinds of attachment because the only loss i can afford to experience is the loss of myself. Hard cannot be in my vocabulary. Intense emotion has no room but in movies and youtube and sendong.
I can't do hard. period.
But i am, we are still survivors by the very definition-- coping successfully instead of physically dying or going clinically insane. There is still hope and hope works well with time.
In the meantime, we need to tolerate pain and face the monster that is never under the bed, but inside us.
Be stronger than your monster.
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